Like a loosed moose I aired my voice out. I wasn't oppurtuned to speak freely as a child. I was actually forced to forgive everything wrong done and everybody who offended or hurt. I went through this torment of hurt and pain, I would let go, but I needed someone to know this was why I was mad at you. Not letting go on different and several occasions with being able to say a word because nobody wanted to hear what I said, it was what they said and that means either being right or wrong I was wrong, and must let go of everything to progress.
One thing they left out of point was that I was human, I had water and blood flowing through my veins and I may not be perfect but somebody needed to make me feel valid, by allowing me or standing for me to tell people where I had been hurt.
This had been going on since I was five years I began growing low self esteem, nothing seemed good around me, I saw myself as a nobody, maybe if I was somebody I should have been loved like the rest. Someone should have always stood for me, to say your wrong, you aren't supposed to do this to her.
My head mistress in primary school also made school unbearable. Nothing seemed calm. Been bullied was a topic no one ever cared to know why I was been treated like that .
Till I rounded up primary school and moved to junior school, then senior school. The first day I spoke it wasn't for me, but it was my healing that broke out. I had to teach myself how important I was.
So, when I saw my kid bro been treated wrongly and someone says forgive and don't say anything. I screamed no, let him speak.
He can't be that little girl whose bible was torn but had to serve the punishment for asking the her why? I refuse him to be that girl whose teacher flogged naked in the classroom over a sin she never committed. an allegation later by someone. I screamed like a loosed moose, who had been on chains for years and tasted freedom for the first time. I regained strength afterward. And am not done healing but am getting better. am not a loosed moose, just acted out of character due to pains I couldn't hide anymore.
