If I were to come back to life and I could choose where I ended up, would I return to the same life I am living? The honest answer is no. There are so many struggles in my life at the moment. And yes, while life is filled with struggles, I would actually want to experience less of them, most especially financial struggles. I want to know what it is like to be lucky. To be born into a rich family—I mean generational wealth—where the least of your worries is money. Sometimes, I wish to be someone who is loved unconsciously and unconditionally. There are some people who haven’t been betrayed by friends, lovers, or family. I envy them and wonder what it would take to be loved like that.
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While education and maybe healthcare are affordable in this country, other things aren’t, such as the cost of living and the availability of employment. My country is corrupt from top to bottom, although which country isn’t? Drugs, violence, starvation, suicide, and extortion are on the rise on a daily basis. And so, no, not this country.
I love being a woman more than anything else. Women are said to be the weaker vessel, but we are strong. I can say that my strength and resilience, my discipline, my love for human life, and my ability to nurture and groom anything I touch into something great are not characteristics that I would want to lose. The strength to take in and bring forth life—some may not understand how awesome it is, but for future mothers like me, it is something that I would love to experience.
I would never trade my family for anyone else. From my strong, kind, protective, and brilliant father to my strong, kind, patient, and doting mother; my supportive and sweet younger sister; and my annoying youngest sister (she's a thorn on my side, by the way), I would never change them. They are the most supportive group of people I have ever known. In my next life, though, I would love to watch my parents grow into old age together. I am a sucker for old age and love.
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In my next life, I would love to be more patient, more trusting, and kinder. I would love to believe more in myself and value myself because no one has the power to make you less than what you think of yourself unless you give them that power. You are exactly what you think you are. I would want to live more and find myself enjoying the little moments. I would take life a little less seriously and delegate my time to family, friends, and helping others. In my next life, though, I would actually not want to be a first child because the responsibilities laid on such a child by family can be daunting. I would love a full and long mane of hair on my head, with a little less forehead. My wisdom tooth may also have to go, and maybe I would be a bit shorter, yeah, so that I don’t feel like every man who loves me wants to get intimate with me without committing to me.
In my next life, I would just smile more, just because it lights up the room when I am around and makes me feel free.
