There are some things that I don’t like to think about. They are my goals, my dreams, and my desires. You would think, 'How can I get to this age without thinking about these things?' The truth is, thinking about these things sends me into a mini-depression.
Do I have goals? Yes, I do. What about dreams, wants, and desires? I do. Of course I do, and even if I don’t, my human nature won’t let me just sit and be satisfied with being mediocre.
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I started this year with a clean slate—no debts on my neck. I struggled in the past year with loans and debts, and it took everything from me to clear them. I decided to make plans since I was starting the year on a clean slate because previously, I had put my own desires on hold so as to support my family the best way I could. This year was supposed to be different. I got a better job with better pay and moved to a different city with more affordable costs of living, but it wasn’t enough. I didn’t change my lifestyle to become more expensive. I didn’t spend more than I could actually afford. It has become tiring to have to think about my priorities about three times before I spend even one dollar.
You can't really blame me, though. The standard of living in the country is getting worse, and the cost of living is now high. The value of the naira against the dollar started to drop in March. And since then, it just got worse, despite the government seemingly trying to implement different strategies to increase the value of the naira against the dollar. Food is expensive; transportation costs are high, not to mention the cost of housing and other bills. If you don’t have two or three sources of income, you would starve in this country.
In April, I was introduced to Hive. I spoke to my brother, 
I had other goals as well, like starting a professional sonography course or running a master’s programme in public health, but as the year goes by, they keep becoming insignificant as more important things keep coming up, and again, my plans get discarded. Surviving each day is an achievement given the terrible state of the country. If you can eat, find shelter, and pay medical bills, you’re having a great life.
Would I achieve my goals on Hive this year? I intend to, and I will try my best despite my demanding job. Other goals would have to wait, as there’s only so much I can do at the same time.
