I started a sobriety and celibacy journal nine months ago hoping to avoid wasting time and energy In romantic or sexual involvement with the wrong person. I have seen the benefits of being firm in my resolve. But I've also stumbled a lot and seen the negative effects of not keeping my word to myself. I finally decided that I may as well kill two birds with one stone bye posting my journal to steemit.
I've been through the gut wrenching heartbreak of divorce and no longer have the same feelings about romance. But I still get turned on LOL
I enjoy sex like everyone but the benefits of harnessing that energy for other uses mental physical and spiritual are immense. As a male, I have experienced the exhaustion and depression that come from excessive orgasms. When I am chaste and sober, my body feels stronger, my mind is more creative, and my spirit is much happier.
I blocked a handful of women's numbers on my phone a couple days ago because our connections were purely sexual. And I told a girl I like that I am taking a period of sobriety and celibacy and that I would still like to spend some time with her if she is still interested. I have not heard back from her yet.
One of my inspirations is to experiment with the Buddha's instructions on enlightenment. He said that booze and lust are the two primary causes of human misery. I've definitely seen the connection between drinking leading to fooling around LOL
I've been using some unconventional dietary strategies to help heal my back injuries. One strategy is eating a lot of raw eggs because I've lived with the Eskimos and learned how raw meat makes the muscles grow strong Even if there is no exercise. The downside is that the increased protein and nutrients really increase my testosterone levels and thus how turned on I tend to get.
Another observation is that the longer I go without orgasm, the more women are attracted to me. I have found myself surrounded by temptation. One rule for my sobriety and celibacy experiment is no porn, masturbation, or staring at chicks on the Internet LOL.
I am hoping that by sharing this I will be encouraged to be steadfast in my commitment. And I don't know how lawn I will go but a week sounds like a good starting point and I will treat it just like any other addiction. ... One day at a time :-)
