How do I explain this feeling?
Just only peace & calm & Joy.
Every day. Even on the challenging ones, I come back to peace so much easier.
This makes me feel like a broken record but I keep coming back to the place that is where my life has landed. Or rather, worked to be in.
But it wasn’t a place that came easily nor quickly.
I suffered tremendously most of my life. Not always because of others, sometimes because of me. Because I only knew suffering, I always chose suffering.
Here is the beauty though…. Suffering isn’t all there is! Once I set my eyes on what happiness would look like to me, I began practices that would get me to exactly where I saw that happiness beginning.
Every single day since March has been a literal choice to seek out happiness & stability, & contentment rather than running from what I needed to sit with, in silence.
Happiness is something you have to practice just like a healthy body, or being good at an instrument.
When I changed my idea of happiness from a feeling to a practice, my world began to shift and lead me towards where I am today.
Do not give up yet!
