I like many have always called myself a dreamer, I wanted to get somewhere, to achieve big things and really become happy. I was in the serious mindset of work to achieve something.
I was the ''wants to be successful'' type of person, oh how very funny and sad, because the people who chase success always fail at it in the most miserable way. There is no success and it's just a thing that we, with envy, say to people who are rewarded for doing what they enjoy. This is why I changed my approach completely, threw away my career, stopped giving shits in every way. The instant I did it, happiness found me and so did everything else.