And I remember so coming more from the secular into this, as I told everybody in the beginning, I worked for the government and went to school for psychology, of all things. So when you talk about prophecy and you talk about secular psychology, you really question, am I hearing from God?
Am I just jumping into this a little bit too deeply? And I know that I did that. And I'm glad I did.
It's part of my testimony. So for me, when I started doing these shows on His glory and hearing all these testimonies and I started keeping a journal and I started saying, OK, God, this is what I believe that you're weighing on my heart, what I'm hearing you say. But God, and I said, don't think that I doubt you.
I never doubted that there was a God, that if you know that he was our father, that he listened to us. But I doubted I was hearing correctly. And so I said, forgive me for my weakness.
But God, I don't know if I'm hearing from you or if this is just me. Could you give me a sign? And I know I was on a walk. I had a walking trail that's around my house and I'm on this walking trail and I'm like, God, and I was just surrendered to God, my heart.
I'm like, God, I just I want to make sure that I'm hearing you clearly. And I felt this or heard this little, still, small voice that weighed on my heart that said, look to the left.
And in the top of this random tree and a cluster of other trees is this wooden cross that somebody had nailed up in the very tip top of a tree that you could not have seen unless you were standing right where I was and look to the left at that exact moment.
And Jordan and I actually put this in one of our shows and I showed the picture of it because I literally just started crying. I mean, what are the chances? And I felt guilty at the time. I'm like, I feel guilty for even asking for a sign, Lord, but I doubt myself.
I don't doubt you. And so that for me was one of the pivotal moments of, wow, like, this is real. And it was a real sign.
And so we don't always get those. But for me, that way, I was just pouring my heart out to God. Am I really hearing you? And again, coming from the background that I did in psychology, of course, I was going to question this.
