Around the time I discovered Steemit (or possibly before but Steemit is the biggest milestone around the time period), I found that I have become lost in myself.
I find it hard to concentrate on anything, focus for any real length of time on a particular subject matter, and really get anything done in the time I used to. I haven't lost my abilities, in fact I've improved many of my abilities; things seem to take much longer now and I am always just so many hours away from going to bed.
I've also (over the past several years) developed a bit of a drinking problem. I don't get angry and go beat on women and children, don't worry. I have found myself drinking more and more regularly however, and of course when I drink i become a bit more aggressive (more prone to write posts on steemit), and easier to focus on things that bother me. This can include anything such as: politics, religion, stupid posts on facebook, or some troll on steemit from #steemph that is still hungup on how handsome I am by comparison to them and/or their lover (or both).
I'm going to try Polyphasic sleep. I already wake up consistently throughout the night/day (depending on when i go to bed), so I figure why not?
Doing so requires me also to stop drinking which is going to be very tough for me given i've become accustomed to a few drinks per day but if I'm able to handle it, should prove beneficial to my health.
I plan to also work in working out again, I haven't ACTUALLY lifted weights in a few months. I have all of the equipment, but I just never use it. Sometimes i tell myself 'oh your drinking today it won't be very beneficial anyways, do it tomorrow when you're not drinking'. I gladly accept that excuse, and then i pour a nice glass of brandy and code the following day same as the day before with the exact same excuse. How clever I am...
I am fully aware that I may not succeed but I have decided to post here on my Steemit Blog to try to keep myself accountable, both to myself, and to anybody that actually reads this and would like to see me better myself. If anybody has any tips or would like to help me through this journey I'd appreciate the guidance.
If anybody wants to talk shit and be a douche instead, save the key strokes and stick a finger in your ass instead. It'll feel better for both of us. I'll even supply the KY if you provide proof that you did it here on steemit for everyone's comedic pleasure!
I may not stop entirely, that would be asking quite a lot, but i'm going to try. I'm going to hold myself back as much as I can and anytime I do drink, i commit to make a post with my failure in order to keep myself accountable.
Thanks to future me, and anybody else that cares for reading and supporting this effort. I hope it turns out to be a success.
