2021 did not start well and I literally lost myself for few weeks

But some of the great posts on hive is helping me a lot to recover. As I wrote in my last post, the year started with a medical emergency. This year, I was planning to relax myself and spend more time on this chain. After struggling with all the work during Corona times, things were becoming easy and just then, we had this emergency situation.

This is the photo from ICU - WHERE phones are not allowed. However, I managed to take one phone, and take a photo - the reason was that, my father was becoming more anxious every day to go there. Taking him to hospital during this time has more risk - so I just decided to show him photographs to assure that things are well.

My daily routine became tough - going to hospital twice and spend some time with Mom during the permitted visited hours and then taking care of father at home, and all the regular responsibilities. There were more on my “to do” list than I actually could do each day with me always trying to “get better” at what I was doing.

I was giving up from inside - because I was not able to do everything perfect. Thankfully time helped a bit - Mom moved to a room and my younger brother came from Bangalore and stayed at the hospital. And just then, we had some bad reports for my father - he was diagnosed with early stage Dementia - he needed more focus. I put up a daily routine of exercise for him, because he was not willing to walk freely and was developing a fear factor. Couple of weeks of routine followed has helped a lot - but at the cost of burning myself more.

Mom is at home now doing better but I was still not able to come up to my regular schedule and just then few posts from my hive friends has helped a lot. This post from @cryptographic was a great boost for me. Every sentence in the post was reflecting myself with the solution at the end :

Take your foot off the gas, everything will come, everything will be what you want it to be, calmly, organically and naturally, sooner or later, and, most likely sooner

Yes, I have been reading some great posts on this chain to recover (this is the only social media now I am on), and after that I was able to put up this post. Some of the moral boosters from the chain :

People don't burn out because of what they do. People burn out because life makes people forget why they do it - @theycallmedan

Claim your Personal Power Back - @nainaztengra

I am trying to de-congest myself - for a while I was just trying to do as much as possible and I realize its not possible and I need to take my feet off the gas. Hopefully, I will be able to spend more time engaging soon - that was the sole reason for powering up 100k hive. And of course continue posting occasionally.

Thank you all for your continued support. I am sure, we can provide more emotional support through this social media than any other.