@chincoculbert , nothing is ever that bad that it is unsalvageable. If indeed you have lost something precious, I am sincerely sorry for you. I hope you can pick yourself up and learn from any mistakes that were made and that she realises the genuineness of your apology. Please don't leave POB and Hive. You were just getting started. And if this is simply a fictional piece then you had me going...but it feels too emotionally invested to be fictional. So I hope things work out for you. Go easy on yourself.