I had no idea the lies I told would one day come back to hunt me. I didn't really consider it a lie, because there was actually an iota of truth in it but it just wasn't the whole truth, it was perfectly coated to suite the situation.
I didn't mean to hurt her, I just wanted to get out of the messy situation I was in and I had to drag her into the whole picture. It felt easy, all I had to do was make her feel sorry for me and it was it, after all she's just like every other girl.
She, I thought would just be a means to salvage myself, I was stupid, and even naive. I let my greed get the better of me, I'm hopeless, even the devil would be impressed with me. He'll look at me and smile, " this is truly my son", he'll see me fit to take over his legacies. The true son of lies himself. He'll crown me with a crown of lying tongues, tongues sharp enough to cut through flesh.
But all this happened before I really got to know her. She's not just like any other girl, she's beautiful on the inside, amazing, caring and has the best personality ever. When I'm around her I lose control of myself, I can't help it. I've seen how bright she is and she's still willing to help me regardless of who I am and who I have become. She showed me all of her, let me in and gave me protection.
I'm not worthy to receive any sympathy, I deserve no place in her heart.
I'm sorry, I really messed up and I know there's no way to fix back this broken trust, I'll just let you follow your heart and I'll just leave you with this. I'll walk out of your life and never come back, all ties broken, like you never met a fair, slim guy like me. You'll go back to your amazing life and keep using your kindness to change other people's lives. I'll leave, walk out of the POB, leave the Hive and you'll never have to see me again or anything I write, I'll be dead to you, erased forever.
I just hope she'll forgive me, that's the only thing I can hope for so I'll be able to forgive myself.
Goodbye
Your's sincerely
Chinco