I enjoyed reading your comments. It helps me. It's like free therapy. We don't have such things here. I believe you are one of the few people that understands me. Maybe because we have similar experiences or because of your wonderful and sweet nature. I'm grateful for these words.

My mom was very sick before she died. We don't have free health care in this part of the world. And I did told her to give me some time to make enough to really help her. She is all i have(I hate using past tense). I'm still in denial anyway.

So it's really painful and I am going to deal with that all my life. Concerning the movie i recommended, the main character was slow to help his mom with time as she timed out few seconds before he got there.
When i watched it, i hoped it wouldn't happen to me. But, yeah it did!

I would definitely check the book, thanks for your recommendation.

How are you coping?

Living in denial seems to work for now. I don't know how long. I just act like she's somewhere around me. I hardened my heart to any thought of her demise.

For hive, I can't seem to be productive. It's difficult to write a long post now. It's harder to comment on the post of others. These simple things are really difficult. I hope i get myself together before i lose the little support i am getting. I really need Hive. I'm off/on for now. Hopefully I'd gather strength.

I hope you understand my words. I tend to make alot of mistakes when i type too quickly from my head.