"I know there is something wrong , but I don't want to know it because otherwise I cant sleep". The more you go into this rabbit hole of 'conspiracy' the more reactions like this you will receive. And yes, if I realize that the food we eat is poison, the air we smell is poison, the government want us to stay poor, and through Wikileaks we know Hillary is emailing about friendly aliens... I kind of want to go back to the 'safe' world I was in till now. The world in which most people are living their lives, going to work, raising kids in the same system.
But then ... No I do not want to be mind controlled by the media, I want to be free, to be conscious of all what is possible in stead of the limited version of the world I am being told to believe in.