Thanks for your thoughtful response.

. . . if you don't have sinful stains like I have. . .

From a biblical perspective, what we call sin is a result of the fall from the original intention of God for mankind. However, hope is not lost. A way of recovery back to the old path has been provided through His Son. Putting our faith in what Christ has done on the cross is the way back to the Father.

why does bad happen to innocent?

Even theologians struggle to provide an answer to that question. Two years ago, I published an article about this topic, and here is the excerpt on the problem of evil and suffering:

I accept that it is not easy to explain the existence of evil and suffering if one will affirm that God is continually maintaining and governing this world. For many, belief in the existence of an all-good and an all-powerful God cannot be maintained at the same time. They see these teachings as contradictory. So better to live in a world without such a God.

The problem of evil and suffering does not go away even when someone rejects the biblical concept of God. This is a common problem for all men and women living on planet earth. And not only that it doesn’t solve the problem, but it also makes the problem more complicated for only in a theistic worldview that the ideas of a “just” and “unjust” suffering make sense.

An idea of justice that emerged from a pure naturalist world still has to explain how one arrives at such a conclusion. If someone would say that this conclusion has been deduced from the observation of what is going on in the world and is an outcome of either a collective or individual consciousness, still this explanation is not enough for the basis of such observation remains unanswered. If then, those who deny the existence of an all-powerful God cannot provide the rational basis for their concept of justice, how can they throw such an objection of unjust suffering against the theist? Source