Of course you are absolutely right.

Sometimes I actually do. It's not something I ever had since a small child. I have to try too hard and that shows and weirds people out. When I'm making art or photos or was playing shows in the band I think I liked myself. Then all the other considerations of life come in and crush me especially always having less than literally everyone. Such a sad tale of woe... lol There are people over the last 40 years who made a good amount of money off the songs I wrote and co wrote. I don't actually know who though. I was young and dumb. couldn't afford lawyers. it's a typical band story. It's a fact though. Somebody collected the money! And still is. Sorry. sSo Silly. But I'm ashamed of that. Not being able to deal with it.

One reason I would want to own a home is I have had to leave every place I've rented. One day the landlord say's you gotta go and that's it. I've never been evicted for anything wrong. Sometimes the owner dies and the kids sell and cash in. It's just so hard and expensive to move. That sort of thing is what money is really useful for. Making a smooth transition. I'm not wanting to impress anyone just want some freedom from people forcing me around... a bit of a garden. And air conditioning.