Thanks so much @sunscape. I love Hive for allowing us to be vulnerable with each other and know we aren't alone. I think you are right with allowing things to up and out. My instinct has always been to avoid anti depressants even if it's so bad you actually think about medication! I hope you are on the up too, or at least out of the worst. I think I'm getting there. I've also starting taking some vit Bs which I think helps too. I don't eat much meat you see. I don't think that's the main cause at all, I'm just doing what I can to cover all bases!