Fuck I get it. We can do all the things because we know what is meant to help but sometimes it's like fucking hell, do I have to KEEP doing all the things? When is one foot in front of the other in a foggy dark woods going to get us .. anywhere? Your rational mind knows the answers. Knows the meaning. The logic. But that part that's in survival mode and wants to grab Lily and run and protect her is struggling with that. All I can say is I get it, I get it, I get it. Sending you love and hugs xx