For this week, today is the first time I went outside our house, and I kinda regret it. The sun is scorching, and since I need to avoid much contact with its rays, I put on my jacket, which doubled the heat I felt. I'm supposed to stay at home in this heat, but I have an obligation to do. I need to go to mass every Sunday, so whether there's scorching heat or pouring rain, I need to try going to church if I can. It became one of my weekly sacrifices to do so, that's why as much as possible I really commit to that obligation.
So we started walking when it was past 3:00, and even though it isn't as scorching as it has been at noon, it's still undeniably hot outside. The once barren cornfield was now filled with corn plants. For a while, those plants became our shield to the harsh rays of the sun, but of course, when we got out of them, I immediately opened my umbrella. I thought the corn plants were the only ones that changed; however, when we reached the main road, I was quite surprised that the road widening is almost done. Not that I underestimate the efficiency of workers here, but I was just caught off guard because based on the road constructions I witnessed before, they usually last several months.
And those aren't the only changes I've seen because it seems that in just a week of not going outside—there are a lot of things that disappeared and appeared. The big tree that usually gave shade to us when we walked towards church was now cut down. Further, the old house that I once admired was demolished, and in its place—a big tarpaulin with the picture of future housing units stand. Seeing those changes made me quite sad because they've been part of my journey as I've grown up.
It's crazy how anything can change in the blink of an eye. Seeing how the places that I used to be familiar with became new to my eyes somehow stirred unwelcome melancholy in me. I'm definitely not fond of changes because I'm a person who thrives with the stuff that's familiar to me. I don't reject change, but I just dislike it because, more than the excitement I felt, the fear of encountering something I'm not familiar with is much greater. So seeing those changes in one day really affected me, and it made me think once again how unpredictable life could be.
That's why, as much as possible, I want to emulate what Father shared in his homily this afternoon mass, and that's to—treat every moment as a gift, for yesterday's history, the future is a mystery, and today's a gift because it's the present. That one again reminded to not overthink about what will happen in the future, just trust the process and enjoy it along the way. I know it's hard to trust something you're not sure of, but I'll see because maybe it could work. Or not. Working or not—it would be a waste if I wouldn't try it. So yeah, like I said I'll see.
I think that's enough realization for this day—anyway, how about you? What changes have you experienced lately? I don't know if it's really about those changes or it's just the heat frying the decreasing braincells I have, but I'm glad that once in a while, I get to make realizations out of the simple things I encounter. Well, that would be all for now everyone, and I hope to see you around!
All of the pictures used were taken by yours truly, ridgette.
