Hello all my hivers friends wherever you are. I hope you are always healthy and happy, dear, you are a precious person so don't be sad and have fun, unlike me, who is being tested with my heart.
The answer I wanted did not come to me, and more and more questions were running through my head, whatever I did I felt that it was right as well as my treatment of him. he was a good human figure but turned into a bad person who had no feelings at all.
however you pray for my relationship. March 31, 2022 yesterday was the day I decided I wanted to be alone without a partner. I work and go home to the boarding house at half past 9 I finally clean up and at 11 at night I sleep, then at half past 1 at night I wake up and watch live shope just to see. Then I tried to close my eyes, but I couldn't. I was hit by homesickness suddenly I cried and I tried to control my feelings to avoid depression. but I can't, the turmoil that is hidden in my heart is so loud and overflowing that I can't control myself and my tears flow freely without stopping. At that time there was a friend of mine who was sleeping next to me. he is very sleepy. and finally I had to cry silently. mental battery is not very fine. I'm very stressed. I finally thought that I was still attached to him. he didn't reply to my whatsapp chat because what i didn't know was my fault. finally at half past 5 in the morning I chatted with him very forced I ended this relationship but I said I still love him and I want to make up. but it's true that my chat is only read. then at 12 noon i decided to block him from whatsapp and i have to move on. I thought he was no longer interested in me. even though after the separation it hurts. I feel it's much better than surviving even though the pain is continuous and continuous.
I disappeared from the last post update it's been too long. I don't know what to do but I'm currently just living my normal life with the same activities. I had time to treat the pain by chatting with my coworkers. Even so, I cried silently in the bathroom. It's a disgrace, but it's really painful to hold back tears so other people don't see. I love him but he loves his ego more.
I have a lot of memories, I still can't believe why it ended like this. although there are very many ideals to be realized with him. I know he is a logical thinker. but does not his heart say. why so stubborn Is this God's destiny because of God. jealous i love him so much. whatever it is I believe God's way is there for me even though I have no direction in the future. I don't even dare to love someone else. because it hurts my feelings. Our relationship has been around for almost 2 years.
I often remember him. I thought about how he feels now. everything is like a dream. if time could pretend again could we still be together? I don't know.. we are both tired and tired of this relationship. but in the end it was tragic.
dear, if you were me how would you be? do i really have to forget him forever? I really love him but why is he behaving like this. Whatever it is, I hope my heart heals first. sorry dear if the photo doesn't match the story because I don't know the photo that describes the pain I've been traumatized by everything I've been through, because the photo was taken some time before I broke up so I can still smile widely. so hope you all happy.
