Woke up this morning with the biggest feeling of not wanting to do anything. I have been going through a tough time emotionally, based on new experiences happening in my life, new changes, learning new skills and having to change my life trajectory. The way I planned my life is nig the way it’s going and I am in the stage where I just have to accept my new reality and stop clinging on the old one. The whole feeling has been overwhelming and I feel this vacuum in my life right now, I feel this space, I don’t know how to fill it. Other days when I am feeling this way, I just bury myself with work and trying to achieve my goal, but lately it’s been different. I dont feel that way anymore, I just want to lie on my bed and sleep till this whole phase is over. But reality and Life is not programmed that way, I have to face my problems myself.
This morning felt like one of those days where I didn’t want to do anything just stay on my bed, watch movies, sleep and drown myself in that anxiety till I don’t feel it anymore. But then, as an entrepreneur whose survival depends on his daily activities, I had to look for a push. I searched inwardly to get that push and it was hard, thé more I was searching for that push, thé harder I found it. I thought of so many things that could motivate me to put on my laptop and do some work, but it was hard to find. I am completely burnt out from all activities and I need some rest but I can’t afford to rest. So what do I do?
I remembered that i have Hive, Hive is like my diary where i can Côme and vent about how I feel and I will feel better in some ways. It helps because it’s therapeutic in lots of ways, lots of people are going through a lot mentally in this pursuit for financial freedom. It’s not talked about enough but it’s happening, glad we have Hive where we can talk about anything and how we feel. In terms of push and what is behind mine, I think it’s my family. Seeing my family believe in me so much gives me that push I need to keep going.