I spend already half of my life. I Don't know how much time I will live in this world. No man knows that how much time he or she will live in this world. But every man wants to live here with harmony and success. Everyone wants to be successful. I am one of them. It’s a bluddy ahit thought for me. I did Everytime think about my future. But, actually what have I done??!! Nothing, now I am here at the very middle of my age. Still I am jobless. I am still passing my time for searching a good time. I Don't have any idea when the good time will come. I Don't have any idea when the time of mine will come.
As far as I can understand that I already have been be a useless man. I do think it. I am still nothing.
Everynight when I go to bed, this thought give me a lot of pain. All of my friends are earning thousandsof money, they are taking their responsibility and what I am??!!!
Even, without earning money, no one give me the proper priority . I can't take it easily. I can't take part of any kind of activities of my family because I Don't have any contribution to them. I done have any value of my comments in my community. I am a valueless man. I am totally zero. Some of the times I thought it’s very easy to die rather than survive.
But I can't. I Don't know. What is gonna be my future . I have left all of my friends. Almost all of them. They and their attitude give me frustratio. Just frustration, nothing else. I am so much alone. I was alone. Nowadays, I have a frien. Not in real life. Just for online talking. I Don't know how long time she will continue her talk with me. Whatever, it’s my life. I will survive it.
Nowadays, I have most forgotten, how to watch dream. I have already have lost my dreams and I Don'thave any new dream. I can't sleep all the night, I can't keep my eyes open whole the day.
I Don't know what's going on with my future. I Don't know how much time I will have to lead such boring lonely life. My life is a statue. It doesn’t have any heart or soul.