Multiple emotions
Motionless
Hey people, I hope you're having a great day today. Its been a little over a month since I posted something on steemit, and well...life hit me in the face pretty hard a few weeks ago. Probably one of the most appalling moments in my life to date, and just when I thought that this storm was going to pass, I was only engulfed in the eye of it even more.
Well Steemit, I was evicted from my apartment, and it was not because I was being the good ol boy that took care of everything or payed his bills on time. It was because I was betrayed, by my own mother. Let that sink in for a second, my own mother betraying me, sounds like a f**kin movie. It's hard going back to this subject, and I never talk about my personal life over the internet, I'm well reserved when it comes to this, but I know someone out there is experiencing the same thing that I went through.
Last picture I took...
I didn't know my mother went to court for the eviction notice and this was a month before the rent was due on the 1st of November. She was always the person who would procrastinate when it came to doing important things, but the thing is, is that me, my sister, and her partner all payed our bills for the month of November. It turns out that my mother didn't give the rent money to the office when it was due. All of our money, magical gone. I can't even fathom what was going through my mothers head. I just couldn't understand why something like this was happening. Then something hit me, maybe this was the true nature of my mother, maybe this was truly who she was. I only knew about the eviction because my grandmother told me the day before.
I only had 4 hours to move my personal things before the people came to lock up the apartment (good thing I wasn't there to experience that any further). My grandma went to buy some tubs so me, my sister, and my brother can put our stuff in there and move. Of course my mother comes 2 hours later to move her things but I didn't even look at her, I didn't even bother and when she asked me to move her things, I said no, and got my sh*t out of there. My sister was beyond livid, my younger brother was in denial, and I was numb to it all. Everything just happen so fast. I don't even know how I'm functioning right now as I type this. I now live with my grandma again, and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The only thing is, is that the eviction will be on my record for a very long time. I will not be talking to my mother for a very long time.
Well, I just been working with my cousin cleaning houses out, and keeping treasures that I find along the way. I spent Thanksgiving with my grandma and some of the family, my mother didn't show up, which was a good thing, and I'm pretty much almost done with school, I just need one more semester. I thank god that my grandma is still here today because without her, me, my brother, and sister would be homeless right now. Its been very hard though because I get these urges to make art but I haven't been because of what happen. I want to make something so bad but I just can't bring myself to do so. I have lost the motivation that I once had. Everything won't be the same ever again.
A piano version of the main menu theme,
such a beautiful tune.
I now realize that anyone can hurt you, even your family...
