I know how you feel. I do. When you open your heart to any relationship, friend family, any especially any new ones; it feels too hard to fit in anymore. I give the wrong people my time. Thats my problem but you have to change what you are doing if you want a different result from life. It scary and I have trouble taking my own advice. I do. Its so easy to tell other people to live. Its not worth it but I completely understand how you feel at the same time. Theres a lot of messed up people out there. I've noticed the more you take care of yourself, the easier the rest will happen. Im sorry you're feeling this way. Makes me a bit dispondant so I hope you cheer up some. Maybe watch a funny movie... have you seen "The Heat" it makes me laugh.... ooo "Dale and tucker vrs evil" funny. Sometimes we have to trick ourselves. Laughing is good for the soul. If you do watch any of those, please tell me. If not a friend turned me on to this cartoon mini series. Its called Midnight Gospel. Its trippy so if you use cannabis, smoke and chill but its recently helped offer me perspective. Yes a cartoon. But you'll see what I mean.