PRETTY NICE MICROVLOG: it's my birthday tomorrow and well... I dont feel that happy. ...

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I always imagined my life so different
The highlight of my week is a car ride. Pretty soon I wont be able to do that. I always envisioned myself turning 40 with a group of people and the "over the hill jokes". No. Not for me. I deal best I can. I cant sit up long. I save my steps for getting to and from the bathroom but then I'm in just horrible pain. It's just horrible pain. So a car ride is what I get. 60 to 90 days seems like a long time to wait for an answer.