I am choosing to use this space to write and present my thoughts and observations publicly . On this platform so far, what I noticed most through other people's stories is perseverance. The comments were also supportive. This space seems like it's alright to dare to speak up and hope to be understood, not trying to be popular or relatable or getting bullied. I saw kindness and humility and I wish for it to last. Solidarity doesn't have to be a ride or die thing. Demanding from others great thing and having expectations often ends in fall-outs. Nothing can be guaranteed. The aftermath goes as such : Blaming becomes easy. Scapegoats are created, the truth gets denied, logic is brushed off, and the damages become even greater. Can bonds regain the strength they once had. Can they return stronger? I doubt it.
To avoid this, taking someone seriously, be real and down to earth is more than enough . Going the extra mile and actively helping them without wanting anything in return would be ideal. But we have to let it be, I think. Nothing is more charming than building our path forward organically. It's unfortunate to yield to some other external pressure. But most individuals deal with unfortunate circumstances in their lifetime and they must find ways to overcome problems they did not cause. It highlights how precious and important charm is in my opinion.
Life has been negatively eventful and I have reached my lowest point. I thought I would give up and let myself die. But I was privileged enough to have been seen and helped. I am grateful. I am open to growth and I will face whatever lies ahead. Despite the fact that at times the helping hands felt like poisonous thorns I had to held on firmly not to fall to my death. Because when one becomes vulnerable, they somehow attract those who shamelessly reveal their unlikable personas and huge ego. They know there will not be any retaliation so they do the most.
I was forced to learn who people really are and to accept it. To face who I really am and also accept myself. But there's other ways, much less traumatic to learn about people. Through games. Play-making is like a gateway to the player's mind. The more you play the sharper you become. The more you discover the more awareness you gain and as time passes you realize how dangerous it is to be oblivious. Each day that passes ignorance terrifies me even more. Exploring and learning constantly are slowly becoming a necessity. I want to enjoy the moment but I find myself thinking of an ominous future. I feel the urge to prepare. To not be caught off-guard and left powerless. I'll have to find the right balance. I don't trust anyone to guide me. The vibe is the only thing worth caring about and following. So that's also something I want to convey on this platform.
Cheers to new beginnings.
