It has been a little over a month since I returned to Hive, or rather, found out about most of the Steemit community moving to Hive. A little over a month since I decided to quit my job.
I've been in this place before. Burned out, job quitter, blog starter, or in this case, blog restarter.
I'm less anxious this time around. The future, again, is wide open, but this time, I have experience.
The last time, around 2017/2018, I quit my job and wasn't sure what the future had in store for me. I wasn't sure what I would do with the rest of my life or how I would contribute to our income. I wasn't healed, hadn't regained my energy and I thought I'd never work again. I found Steemit and I blogged. I found some enjoyment in baking and some challenge in baking healthier (less unhealthy). I shared my experiences with you, about cooking, baking, gaming, photography, my life.
Some posts did well, some didn't. Some I was very proud of and hardly got notices, while others were simple, but received bigger rewards than I would have imagined. I learned about the randomness of Steemit and learned to accept it for what it was. I enjoyed the interaction and the crypto's I managed to make were a nice bonus. I traded with my liquid rewards, building up a nice little portfolio, but I never powered down. And so I slowly build up my account. Posting every day, interacting every day. For about a year.
I enjoyed this time away from work. A time to do whatever I wanted. But wasn't I supposed to work? Aren't we all supposed to work? This thought was always going through my head. It's great to have a husband, but stay independent. Make sure you can fend for yourself. That's how it's supposed to be, what I was taught. I wasn't ready for this though. Not for a year.
Then my brain screamed for a challenge and I decided to find a part-time job. I found one, I was excited and for a while, I had a good time. The job drained my energy though, and so I wasn't able to keep up with my blogging. My crypto portfolio stood still, my Steemit account stood still and I was slowly wearing myself down, again.
That brings us to now. Burned out again since december, job quitter again since last month and jobless again starting june. Blogger again since little over a month ago.
I'm not so worried this time. I'm smart, I have experience in IT, a good education... if need be, I can find a job. For now though, I won't. We have savings, hubby has a job and I need this time for myself, to regain energy. I'll feel it once I'm ready.
Hubby says I shouldn't worry about work for the rest of the year, the sweetheart!
For now, my life is about finding the joys again. My garden is my challenge. Blogging is my challenge. And this community has welcomed me back with open arms, for which I am so grateful! The rewards I receive here feel like a welcome bonus so I don't feel completely useless in providing for us. And the nice replies and conversations I find here increase my mood and confidence. So thank you or all of that!
I'm not sure what the future will hold for me. But then again, who does? I'll try to do what feels right, move with my shifting priorities and hopefully, I'll be better capable of staying mentally strong next time. Notice problems sooner, act on them sooner.
Life's all about learning and I think I've learned a lot. I also think I have a lot more to learn. How exciting!
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