Well shit. Sorry this has taken me a few days to get here, but I'm here now! Sending hugs your way my friend. That is a really tough decision to make, but it sounds like you are making the best one you can for your health and the health of your children. Writing is definitely cathartic, and it can totally help you suss out your true feelings and emotions. I know I have a much easier sticking to my guns on decisions when I have spewed it out on paper (or screen). I know there's not a whole lot I can do from so far away, but know you will always have my support or just an ear! 💚