The "sometimes feelings" - All but Fantasies

“Sometimes you just have to say everything
or spend your whole life holding it in
wondering what would have happened
if you had just mustered the courage to say it all.
Sometimes you just have to be the brave one;
the one who tries harder,
the one who cares more,
the one who looks people in the eye
and tells them how there’s nothing
their look couldn’t fix.
Sometimes you just have to put it all out there
without worrying about being vulnerable,
without being scared of the unknown,
without strategically planning every word.
Sometimes you just have to let your heart speak
and hope that the person will hear your beats.
Sometimes you just have to get out of your own head,
swallow your pride,
subdue your fears,
forget for a second that your heart
was ever broken
and love like you’re fifteen again
with the same passion,
with the same innocence,
with the same purity
and the same hope.
Sometimes you just have to erase your memory,
forget what happened in the past,
who hurt you,
who took you for granted
and start over again.
Like your eyes never cried at night.
Like your feelings never got shattered.
Like your heart never got stomped on.
Like you never felt empty.
Sometimes it’s now or never.
Sometimes you just have to save yourself
by doing everything you fear,
by beginning again like you never fell down
and hope for a different ending
because sometimes your happy ending
is right around the corner
waiting for you to find it.”

Asari