Yet, I typed a whole damn title. Silly thing that, right.
Started a few things already this year. Not part of any resolutions but more because it feels like the right time. At the very least it is time to find a new rut.
That is how things go, in phases. Wave after wave, the time from one to the next can be years but the next wave will come without fail.
It does not mean things change forever it just means things are notably different, the next wave comes and you might find yourself back in a similar situation. The only difference is now you know more.
I have always tried to keep myself excluded. People that know me offline, know never to invite me to things. I abhor it yet it can still sting when they do not.
Ideally, a person needs to just suck it up. You can't remove sad without removing happy also.
So fair enough, it is a choice and sure maybe balance needs to be in there somewhere but balance is just a hassle. Balancing everything is chaos.
Maybe it is just a case of categorizing and prioritizing... A lot of fucking zzz's.
If you spend time with family, then you spend time with friends and then you go to work that takes away from every other aspect. So, friends, family and work might have to be one thing.
Then you have the other stuff. Broadly speaking.
I have never been good with time and find everything will happen in its time. Not for lack of trying to crush whatever it is into a tiny box of limited time and whacking it for all I can.
You know. Get the most out of it.
Things have their own way and when I just do what I do when I do and let things become what they will, then it turns out it is not a Bonzai but a big fucking tree and now we have shade, and who knows maybe I will invite people for a picnic because that is much more preferred than them inviting me.
Honestly, though, I won't. If someone does happen on me having a picnic they are welcome, but what is the point of fucking up someone else's day with an invite.
