My love has come a long way...
I feel a huge shift in the last few years towards the way I love myself & my intimate partners.
I have always FELT so much love, but I wasn’t the best at communicating it in my relationships.
Relationships just kinda happened to me, I was not an active participant.
The past few years being mostly single has allowed me to really look at the ways I love as a reflection of the love I feel for myself.
I realized that I never really felt deserving of the kind of love I wanted...and I chose partners who reflected that back to me.
I’ve had to look hard at my deep internal stories & beliefs of what Love looks like & how we give & receive it.
I have realized that much about being in love, is learning how to show love. Learning how to love yourself,.
I never had clear boundaries. I gave till there was nothing left inside to give. I morphed myself into what I thought my partner wanted...often taking on their identities and losing my own.
I forgot to ask for what I wanted & deserved...
I loved with all I had, only to find that after awhile I didn’t feel anything...just emptiness.
It’s taken me many years (and many relationships) to truly look at my patterns & make the necessary inner changes to be able to attract what I truly want. And it’s a continuing work-in-process...