The vote merely a message to convey I found it and I'm working on it, and 2 hours later I realize I could never so elegantly phrase what I feel for you as you could for me. Please let me be blunt; I've always rejected with: "don't try to fix me", but from you I welcome it!

You are not a fad, or a mere temporary infatuation, but I think you were very much aware that your I has always touched me from the very first post on the "in between" that I crashed into almost 2 years ago.

You came at me like a nuclear blast that cradles me like my favorite place, at rest in my hamaca in the shade while a gentle trade wind rocks me into a fitful deep sleep after a long night of fishing/diving with Chino. I never did take my share of the catch, preferring the company instead.

I do have an issue to resolve that involves forgiveness, for my self, but mostly for others. Forgetting to hold on is going to be the tough one, but recent times have shown me that it is possible yet some of the anger lingers to my own detriment. The others I speak of fear me, should I tell them I wont retaliate? All these years I have chosen to do nothing, say nothing, knowing full well this consumes them, but should I give comfort to those that took mine?

I must now de-clutter my life and living space, something I decided yesterday.
I find myself slow in formulating anything I write here, and I find myself pressed for time again, not doing justice to the effort and gift you have given me. I will continue to climb out of my shell to reach for you.