Tettt tetttt tetttttt ...
"Raya ... bukain gate please. Mother is still in the bathroom nih "
The boys know what you're giving
You give the boys a lot of fun
And by the way that you make a living ...
"Great! Denger is not it? !! "
(turn off the song)" yes bu denger "(towards the door and open it)
INTRO ...
My name is Raya. I never thought about what my plan was before doing something. I never stopped anything from happening to me. I let it be as if I'm enjoying it. I never thought about what I did after I woke up, after I showered, after I ate even after I was born.
BACK
I never recognize this person. Is it because Mom ever told me to pay attention to strangers as well as possible. I stared at him from the tip of the shiny black shoes he wore to his coboy-style brown hat. I was silent for a while until he opened his sunglasses and spoke to me with a sarcastic smile. "You look like your mother". I blinked and my eyes widened in shock. "Who are you? Who are you looking for? "I asked innocently. The man looked at me more sharply and made me feel a bit uncomfortable. "I'm your mother's old friend. Your mother is home? ". The man's reply made me a little relieved. At least my mother recognized her. "Oh Mom, Mom ... Mom is inside. Just go in pack ". Immediately the man's welcome came in and met my mother.
I walked with him into the living room. Mirror mounted along the hallway to the living room. I keep staring at him from behind because of the uniqueness of his clothing. I accidentally turned to the mirror as I passed it. I stopped and stroked my eyes as I realized the moment I had passed through the mirror only the image of the man was caught. But I did not think much and did not intend to reassure, because I was convinced it was my brain's lack of sleep last night. I called my mother to meet him.
(knocking on the door) "Buu cepetan already ditungg .." (mother opened the door) "Who?" (turned the man). "I came here just asking about you and your family," the man said. I saw her smiling and hugging the man. "Where have you been? Oh yes I know. You already have a company in Malaysia and you've forgotten your friends here right? "Joked my mother. "Hahaha jokes you have not changed yes. Just as it used to be ". I just watched their conversations that they thought might be very exciting. And choose to leave them to remember his past.
"For what is Ray? Lo out of the house not permit? Plis deh Ray. I do not want to get angry nyokap lo again ". Panic Andre my friend. "This time not what ndre. Cave sure! ". I replied. "Mau Raya diizinin kek, not permitted kek. Do not affect. This we've been half way times ". Acha said my best friend while controlling the steering wheel. I deliberately gave time to my mother's old friend. Seeing my mother's very happy face and unconsciously coming out of the house, I chose to go with my two friends to the top. Nor will I think about how my mother's anger to me later. "As long as we do not nginep, cave safe aja hell". My pressure.
"Eh wallet jatoh" shouted andre warned me. Andre swiftly took my wallet that was near his feet. He glanced at my picture when I was baby with my mother in it. "Is this you? So fat ". Ledeknya. "Eh here," I said, pulling at Andre's wallet. "Ih wait, I want to see. But lo used to be funny too. It's your ro Crazy really different first "Continue Andre. "Udah ah (pulling the wallet) is tuh photo already years ago. I do not need to be so shocked, I'm sure when lo lo you must be more fat than the cave "Candaku. The three of us laughed amused in Acha's car, until the atmosphere began to quiet. I'm still holding my purse. My hand opened it spontaneously. My eyes that lead out the window of the car to switch to the photo in the wallet. When I was a baby, weak and unable to take care of themselves. I stroked my mother's face in the photo that was holding me with a smile. His smile just like before I stayed.
I was startled to realize that I had left my mother alone with a stranger I'd never met before. What have I done? Even I did not ask permission to go ?.
"Udah sampeeee" cried Acha. I was startled by Acha's scream and looked out the window. "Cha? Lo said, we're on top right? ". I asked. "Yes it's already on the peak" said Acha relaxed. "This is a bar at the top. So loh Ray! ". Firmly Andre. "Bar? What bar? "I asked in panic. "Bar yes bar. Lo how is Ray. I told you this we went to the top of the bar "Acha said a little emotion. "But…". "Alright, already already nyampe here". Cut Andre while embracing me. Acha and Andre dragged me into the bar subtly. And do not expect me to think about what will happen to me later.
I was surprised to see the people in it. These are not my people. "Weh sob! You do not come here for a long time. Say eastern blood male to Andre. "Hey do you bring this friend?" Asked the man. "Hahaha this is my friends cave. This is Acha, and this one is Great "Introducing us. "Oh good stuff. Here I introduce you with a new product ". Was my hunch and brain gone? Even this terrible thing did not occur to me to avoid. Yes. Initially only intend to taste. But somehow I gulped down the drink like a tired runner drinking mineral water.
I heard the noise of vehicles. I felt for the first time breathing air. Slowly the skin that covers my eyes is open. Several times I blink and blow my eyes. I was wondering why I was in an old car that this might not belong to Acha. I got up against the headache that did not stop me. And surprised me to beat this headache. The man who claimed to be my mother's old friend was driving this old car. I stroked my eyes again to make sure that I saw this was not wrong. I try to remember what happened before. And my reminder was suddenly disturbed. I just remember I was introduced by Andre to his friend at the bar then I tasted a drink there. The more I force it to remember the more my head hurt and I can not bear to vomit it.
"If not used to drinking, so do not try". The man said cynically. I started to try to talk. "Why can I be here? Andre same Acha where? "I asked shrill. "Hm, it's good I saved" he replied as he firmly pushed the car. I was a little bounce while holding my head. I tried to get up again against the nausea that had not yet completely disappeared. I reach for my fallen purse. I glance at the unintentionally exposed photograph in my wallet. Mother. Forgive me. Mother? I? I was confused again because the photo that should be holding my mother turned into a pregnant mother. In fact I've never seen this picture before. I'm sure I just stick a photo in my wallet. I did not know I was wrong to see it or it was my drunk effect.
"Nyokap cave where?" I asked. But my question is not answered. "Where wok cave nyokap!" I asked in a more rough tone. But he still did not answer me. I was getting emotional and trying to get out of the old car. "Hahaha do not do weird. You do not know how the real world is, "the man said. "You do not have to be so wise! I'm big! I know what I do! I want to take the cave home now! ". I snapped. "You'll be like your mother for a long time. Firm, brave, do not know the risk heh, but unfortunately her beauty blinds her mind ". The man said with a laugh. "What do you say? Lo apain nyokap cave? Pulangin cave now !! "I shouted. "You're worried about your mother huh? Hm sweet. Have you ever wondered if your mother ever worried about you? " "No! I never even thought about it. Because I do not have a brain! Satisfied lo ?! "My anger and emotion succeeded in blowing all my words. "Hm, no. Your brain is not yet formed "he said as he braked his car. I looked out the window and it turned out that he stopped his car in front of my house. I immediately got out of the car and went into the house.
I ran through the mirror and stopped again because I realized my reflection was not caught by the mirror again. I ran back to the front of the mirror to make sure. My eyes widened when my shadow really was not in the mirror. I shut my spontaneous mouth open in shock. I could not believe it and stroked my eyes. I slapped and pinched myself hoping all this was just a dream. But it seems like this strange fact I can not avoid. Am I dead? Or I've turned into a ghost ?. I cried with fear and soon he approached me. I look in the mirror and how sad when the man's image is caught in the mirror as usual. I was afraid, panicked, shocked until I forgot my mother.
I yelled for my mother. But my mother did not answer me. I wanted to run again but my legs could not stand up again. My legs are numb like a paralyzed person. I screamed for my mother. When the man had seen me surrender and resigned he came closer to me. "understand? Have you ever thought your mother was worried about you? ". I was weakened when he asked like that. The more he asked the more paralyzed my limbs. Until finally he asked something that weakened my heart. "Did you ever think of your father where?". I can not breathe. My eyes were getting heavy and my heart seemed to stop beating.
Dark, cold, silent.
Ibuuuuuuu ...
This feeling started coming back to me. Sense knows what the name is. I started to move my hands, began to breathe again. And I can feel my heartbeat again. Slowly I open my eyes. Breathe and move bit by bit. I'm glad I'm back. But .. Mother? Am I blind? Why here is so dark. I heard my mother's voice speaking. Although not clear but I'm relieved. At least my mother is near me. Wait. I heard another voice. Men's voice? Is that father? I'm happy I finally heard the voice of mom and dad. But why is it dark here? I tried to move my body. But my body is too weak for that. I felt my belly tied to the dark wall. Where am I?.
"not!! I just do not want to be with the baby you are! "
" But that does not mean we are aborting it "(crying)
" I do not want to know! Anyway now the child's abortion !! "
" sa .. I do not want to! I beg!
"I do not care! That's your risk because you're always with your old friend! You did not realize I was your husband huh? You've been mated with me but what? You never value me as your husband! You're with your old friend !! This is what households call hah ?! "
What? Who? Abortion? Who will diaborsi bu? Ibuuuuu why now I can not speak? What mother does that mean is me? My mother does not want to diaborsi bu. I'm sure Mom loves me and will not do that to me. But what's with my head bu? My head felt drawn. Mother, please do not do this bu.
I felt the paralysis again. I'm getting hard to breathe. My whole organ is not working. Sick. Only the undefined pain I felt. I do not know what things have gnawed on me. I can not see how this thing destroys my body. I can not yell in pain. I hold this pain in silence. The rope that tied my stomach to the dark wall began to be porous and I was released from the bonds. I felt my heart stop beating. I can not speak to stop this bad thing.
Slowly I started to weaken, weakened and did not know what happened to me anymore. I do not know how I was. I do not know what I'm up to. Because I do not even think about it. I do not know out there whether the fate of Acha and Andre is the same as me. I do not know what my mother's old friend did to my mother. Yes. I never thought of anything. In fact I did not think that I was never born.
