I wrote this poem when I was dealing with pospartum depression after the birth of my son. I couldn't understand why I was in such deep despair when I had this beautiful blessing in my arms, but I couldn't shake the baby blues for quite a long time. I just felt stuck. Like life was on "pause". I felt like life was moving on for everyone else, but I was stuck in the despair...I could see the morning light (the hope on the other side) but it never seemed to get closer.
As The Clock Keeps Ticking-
As the clock keeps ticking
My heart stands still
Life must go on
But I just have no will
And as time passes by
I see the morning light
But still my heart remains
In the dark and gloomy night
No more sorrow
No more joy
No more feelings
They're all just a coy
My mind will remain
As a part of this time
But as the clock keeps ticking
There will be no chime.
Thanks for stopping by!
I have to say that while the joy, the light, the happiness seemed out of reach, it did eventually happen. So, if you are dealing with postpartum depression, please go seek help. It is a chemical imbalance from the sudden drop in hormones after giving birth. Don't sit in misery for another second. Go get help. And if you have feelings of wanting to harm your baby, ask someone to help you care for the baby and you seek help immediately. Do not be ashamed of this! I did not have this particular part of postpartum depression, but it isn't your fault.
Sincerely-Oily
@weetreebonsai