It Won't Matter

Beneath all the masks
And all your sides
The one I like the most is..
With childish smile,
Something that you try to keep for yourself
Sensitive soul walking down the street
Seems so beastly
With eyes that can freeze just by their look
And I had a thought of you
Sitting in your four walls
Moment when you just curl up and start crying
Always was and always will be a hero
Living in the dark
Just so they can have light
I lost my way somewhere between sunset and sunrise when it comes to you.
Sun keeps me away, while the Moon makes me be with you only in my thoughts.
No words that I can trust
No signs I believe
Just a stupid gut
That I have always had
One that made me be there
That gut doesn't let me leave
It makes me think of you
And I try to put it on silent
And I try not to listen,
Not to think
But sometimes..
I get a thought that not everything about you is just like it seems..
Soon I realise
Just one more time in a row
That choice was never even mine.
Silence was yours.
Lies were yours.
And everything is just the way it is.
I'm just pretending that it won't matter.
Just cheating myself that if I don't think it won't matter
And then I look myself in the mirror
Trying to make myself believe
That it won't matter.
I can not lie to my soul..
Instead I will lie to you
Pretend that I don't care
And you will never know how much I do.