This year have been an unpredictable year. It started with me making plans to better my self. I thought it will be a year filled with many achieved goals. Honestly, I started the year in a stressful and lonely way but calm. Come to think of it, I was too busy that I did not even attend new year crossover in my church. Tsk...I'm just thinking of it now. Anyways, thank God for life.
At the beginning of the year, there are many goals I set for my self. Many things I thrived to accomplish before the first 6 months get exhausted. my plans were perfect. No loop holes. I visualized eight months into the future from January, and I saw that everything will be good by then. I was really happy because I will be able to accomplish my goals this year in 6 months, then use what I accomplished (both the finances and other things) to accomplish the goals I have already set for next year. Weird right? Well, that's how I can be. Since 2021, I have set the goals for the year 2025. This goals brings chills to my spine yaknow, but all the same, I will conquer cause' I'm a contender.
On a one to ten scale, if i am to rate myself in terms of accomplishing my goals, I will give myself a four. Or maybe a three.
There are many goals I set for myself this year, big and small, but I have not accomplish up to fifty percent of it. Pains me yaknow. Though one of the major and the most important goal have been accomplished, I still feel like I am lagging far behind.
I would not say it is totally my fault for not being able to accomplish this goals. My plans was flawless. I even imagine many things that will make it fail, and I learnt from the imaginary mistakes and took corrections. One thing I did not take into consideration is life after School.
This year was the year I graduated, though working and schooling at the same time, things became more difficult when I came out of school. I became disorganized and disoriented. I forgot about my goals as the happiness of finishing as planned engulfed my visual. I thought I have accomplished everything. I began to feel like I needed to go away from the school premises immediately. I felt like I needed a break, a time to rest and stay away from the hellish nature of everything. I stopped working and went in search of a break. I forgot the fact that I am a man. The only time a man rests is when they are 6 feet below. This forgot about.
After getting the amount of rest I needed, it became very difficult for me to come back to where I was. I had to start travelling from one state to another, in search of a Greener pasture. Still making a mistake. I did not realize that the only green thing is to hold the one you have very tight, then with that one in your hands, you can go in search of another. I spent most of my money on transportation without getting anything in return.
Porthacourt Nigeria was where I always visited in search of this greener pasture. I wasted quite a lot k no avail. All these time, the month passed faster than I can imagine.
All the plans I set for my self were all forgotten. Even the plan to be a hive witness. I was supposed to join an online class that teaches about computer programming but well, I forgot about that and was chasing what I do not know. That was how everything went down the drain.
Gradually, I began to realize my self. Looking at the calendar, I found out that about 3 months of my time have been wasted. Well, I can not kill myself but scold myself for my stupidity.
I began to make new plans on how to come back to myself. I settled down in Umuahia, Abia state and began to search for a new job as a medical practitioner I am. I got my previous plans and made one or two touches and now, I am gradually following it. Though I am not the person I use to be, I believe that I will get things done before the year ends.
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