They just want to see how perfect things are. Just want to enjoy the moment of victory, not minding the sacrifices, stress and other things that needed to be payed. Nothing is free yaknow.
As children,the cartoon - SpongeBob SquarePants was really enjoyed with SpongeBob and Patrick Star being every body's favorite character. However, as we grow older, life hits, responsibilities chokes, pains present itself, disappointments from the people we really trust. We gradually begin to run away from being in the SpongeBob and Patrick's genjutsu to being as quite and peace loving as the Octopus, Squidward.
Every child is born to be bright, happy and in the light. That is why they have many dreams, ideas (adults call impossible), and many impossible-looking feat which they want to achieve when they grow up. Some put in the sacrifices to gain this but others? Well, they get detailed due to one life event or the other. Life happens ya'know.
The best gift to give a person is peace of mind. This is the most priceless. Better than any gift you give them on their birthday.
Sometimes, in other to achieve this peace, a person needs to either be the fool among fools or be the sacrificial lamb, sacrificing their own happiness just to make other people happy which leads a path for peaceful collaboration.
I have been there. I know how it feels like to sacrifice one peace. And I can actually relate to a very good extent.
There is this reason why I am always against having a relationship. I tend to hate ladies when it comes to that aspect. I can be friends with good benefits with a lady but never ask for a relationship. It's not just me. Not ready t be emotionally attached to nobody no more.
I was once in a healthy relationship. thriving peacefully and perfectly. Or so I thought.
Everything was going smoothly and for the first time in my life, I loved a person more than I loved myself. haha. She reciprocated the love and we actually loved each other like children in nursery school do. It was really amazing.
Time flew slowly as we enjoyed the company of each other. Not letting each second pass without calling or texting each other. They say that this lovey phase of a relationship lasts at most six months, but mine lasted for a very long time. Almost 10 months or one year (if I can recall vividly). Everyone was very happy yaknow though there was little fights but those fights were the most enjoyable moment.
One thing led to another and the next thing I saw was somebody cheating on me. I confronted her about it, in hopes for a valid explanation but there was none. Well, I did not catch her red handed so I have no proof, so I let it slide. I observe a gradual change in character and if I talk about it, I sounded like the always complaining boyfriend. Reverse psychology. Tsk, such a drag. It continued to happened until my health was put in danger. Thank goodness I'm a medical practitioner, so I seek the advice of my doctor and cured everything. Was a disappointing encounter but then, I held on to the good times we used to have. I forgave irrespective of the fact that my pride was hurt. Change was never an option for her as she continued the same act over and over again. this time, she was always travelling with no good explanation of the reason she was travelling. One time, she told me that she lost a hundred thousand. I know too well that she can't afford that on her own and her parents will never give her such money. The question where did you get that money from? Fell in a manipulative ears.
I began to notice that she was actually getting pissed by some questions I ask and she was beginning to loose respect for me. No cap, even as she was doing all those things, I till love her. I still cared for her. Always checking up and trying to make her happy. Well, I overdid it I guess.
They say the best form of love is letting a person go. If they come back, then they are made for you but if they don't, then it is what it is. But me? I had no nerve to let her go because of how much I loved her. This was not my first relationship though.
The thing became unbearable when she started telling her friend things about me. Always disturbing her and things like that. Nobody actually told me, I heard it directly from her mouth. She did not know I was there hearing her. I felt really bad. Felt disappointed and stuff but well, I maintained my cool, went home and cooled off.
After a moment of thinking, I went straight to her house and called off the relationship in a very very calm way. That was the calmest I have ever been. She wanted to use the same reverse psychology but I let her know that I knew what she was doing all along but I just believed her just to let peace reign. I actually let her know some other things and I went back home. Goodnight was the last thing I told her and she started yelling. Saying all the things she can but they fell on deaf ears. Yeah, I cried like a baby afterwards haha. I wanted to go back but naahhhh. I promised to stab myself if I went back. Haha. Come to think of it, that was a really dumb promise yaknow. But I always keep my promise.
She came back after a week of the breakup but I refused to hear nothing from her. I went out, got a friend and held her hands while she watched with great jealousy written all over her face. Calmly, I invited her friend to celebrate my birthday later that night and I did not speak a word about it to her.
She tried to come back but well, I can't go back to somebody I left even though it hurts a lot. It still hurts up till date but then, I've gotten over it. Haha.
When I think of it, I tend to be surprised how I sacrificed my happiness just to accommodate another person. Well, I guess such is life.
Anyways.
Thank you for reading.
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