Life is filled with ups and downs and most times, siblings add a lot to the problems we face while growing up. The ability to accommodate the character of a sibling is one that is very different to acquire and as such, in some homes, domestic violence within siblings tend to occur.
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Irrespective of all the happenings between me and my siblings, I still appreciate the number of siblings I have and I will really want them to be my siblings in the next life (if there is any).
At times, I do think it will be better to have more siblings so that I will get someone to at least be free enough with because I am not really free with my siblings because everyone is focused on chasing the bag and no one really have time for each other. However, I do wish to have an additional sibling who is no like my siblings. Someone who will be able to listen to what I have to say, and vice versa but when I think of it that "the field is not always greener on the other side," I will just have no choice but to live on with out an additional sibling.
The main reason I got to the point of wanting another sibling is when I tried communicating with my elder brother but he was not giving me a sound hearing. Normally, I am 80% introverted but at times, when I get sad on the way, I do seek for someone to talk to, someone who I trust and there is no one I trust as my siblings, and as such I tend to subliminally go to them for advice in any case but to no avail. Due to this, I really needed another sibling who I could communicate with freely.
After some time of thinking about it, I remembered that my mom has already hit menopause and also, getting a new kid now will be a very huge burden for my mom (she don't like Nannys). So after thinking about it for some time, I decided to what I needed was impossible and as such, I started trying to socialize and trust people which is really really difficult for me to be honest. I have been trying for years but to no avail. Instead, it's either I become a counselor or guide to the person, or they try to make the relationship parasitic instead of mutualistic. I searched for sometime and I got a girlfriend who I trusted and was opening up to her but well, just like the other people, she too was after material things Wich I don't have to offer and as such, we had to go our separate ways. I had to learn how to talk to my dictionary and at times, I do look myself I'm the mirror and start talking to my self just to get everything off of my chest and it's been helping a lot honestly. After I learnt how to pour out my heart to my self because I am the only one worth trusting by me, the thought of an additional sibling went out of my head and I was really happy about it.
Thank you for reading through my post, I really appreciate.. I hope to see you next time.
