Today has been a day. I woke up feeling bad and something has popped my empath barrier bubble. Emotions are high. I don鈥檛 want to feel so much and I had to step away from Twitter earlier. I can鈥檛 spare the mental energy.
If you ever wonder how I mange to homeschool, cover living expenses, and treat myself with traditional medicine as a single mom with no personal income the answer is, I don鈥檛. I don鈥檛 manage. My finances are wrecked and it appears I鈥檓 being sued by a debt collector now (haven鈥檛 been served yet).
I鈥檓 doing my best. It鈥檚 not good enough. I remain optimistic and willing to work. I鈥檓 not willing to sacrifice my time with my family. I am in a relatively privileged position to decide that I will live life on my own terms and still have a roof over my head and food for my family. I am grateful for my life and for knowing that I have choices.
I鈥檓 intentionally living with awareness that tomorrow isn鈥檛 promised. Collection communications suck but spending all my time separated from the kids for wages would suck more. When I die, I want to be remembered for my contribution to the world, my relationships, and how I loved myself and others. I don鈥檛 care if I die with a low credit score and negative assets. I try to remember to live and love every day.
Anyway, here are the cat pictures I promised. Black cats are objectively the best cats 馃悎.