I'm so sorry to hear about all of this meuf - focus on the meeting with the lawyer next week and see what he says the options are. I'm hoping you can get the appointment with the bank and they come back to you with some options that are feasible too.

You can't blame yourself for what has happened, that's like saying we all know how our lives are going to pan out 10 years from time when in reality, it's like a completely different life/phase in itself. It's impossible to predict events that happen in our lives but you are in this situation right now and you will get out of it. It's going to be tough, already is but you will get through!

Message me whenever you want, my door is open if you want to chat 🤗