I wouldn’t say I grew up having identity problems. I knew myself and with every passing day, I came to learn more about myself and embrace who I actually was. I wasn’t perfect, but I also didn’t let people try to downplay me for my imperfections. No one is perfect and that’s what makes us human. But once you don’t work on the parts of your life that are not doing so well, it means you’re not ready to do better for yourself.
There was this time back in junior high school when my headmistress was sacking students for school fees. This was a school I started when I was at the age of one and at that time, the school was not developed. I didn’t start the school alone, some of my classmates were also pioneers of the school and it hurt me so much to see them being made to sit out of class for some amount of money their parents were yet to settle with the school. So, I went on and told the headmistress that we started this school with her when it was nothing and now that the school has developed , she’s sacking those that first enrolled in her school just because of some petty cash.
I didn’t know that wasn’t a nice thing to say. I knew I was just spitting facts but then, I was a child and I didn’t consider the feelings of others. I got scolded by my headmistress, my teachers and my mom. But guess what, my friends were made to go back to class and I was the hero. When I think of it today, I really don’t know what to think of it.
Most people call me weird and that’s okay because I don’t really mind. All that matters is that I know who I am, what I want and where I’m headed and I know that the people who love me would always love me for who I am, even if I’m brutally honest sometimes. But yeah, I’m working on that because I learnt not everything is meant to be said as it is , you should learn to keep some things hidden so as to not hurt others. I totally disagree with this but hey, I’d play along.
I don’t think I’ve ever had to try to fit in with others. Man, I have no time for that because I believe everyone is unique in their own way and your people will find you. So, if you’re finding it difficult fitting in with people who claim to be your people, maybe they’re not your people. You can always look elsewhere and also, no one died from being alone. I’ve gone day and weeks without talking to people aside my family and I was totally okay. There’s no rush in life. So, just do you, with no regrets.
Life is actually much better that way.
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