2025 ended in less time than I had calculated. During those months, I had brief moments and moments that seemed to last an eternity. When I stopped to think, I realized that time flew by and I couldn't even enjoy it the way I wanted.
Often, I find myself trapped in a constant cycle of work and studies, purpose after purpose; I find my goal and then move on to another. I don't know when it happened, but I started using the 24 hours of the day as an unlimited resource... There wasn't much difference between distracting myself for a week or a month.
That's why I set aside spending time with my friends, who used to be an essential part of my life, but those were other times, better times. I look back on the past with nostalgia and can't face the future.
I remember the times I planned to step out of my comfort zone, give myself time to laugh, and create lasting memories; however, I always ended up postponing those moments.
The pressure to meet responsibilities and build a future makes me overthink: "Am I living well?" "Am I going too fast or too slow?"
What I do or don't do every day became so overwhelming that I lost sight of the importance of enjoying what truly matters.
Yes, it's important to lay the ground on which I will walk, but it's not worth doing so if I don't have valuable people around me.
Looking back, I realize that time is a very ephemeral resource, and I have wasted it carelessly on things I don't fully understand.
Now... A new year begins again. Everything starts anew, there is a new sense of renewal in the air.
Although life resets with each cycle, nothing remains the same. Circumstances change, and people do too. Sometimes I wish for more time, even if I want more time or to go back in time to live differently, time keeps moving forward and I can't fight against it.
At the end of each year, what really matters is learning from past experiences.
I had good and bad moments, opportunities gained and lost. Now I have to reflect on my priorities and find that balance between being and not being myself.
I want to enjoy every moment, value my friendships, and create new memories. I don’t want to let time slip through my fingers again.
As I look to the future, I vow to make a great effort to stay aware in order to make necessary changes; this may be the first step: to breathe and look around me.
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