For the past three days, I've been thinking of what to say, how do I introduce myself? I'm tired of overthinking it so here goes, this is me.
My name is Nelson George but most people call me Nelly. I'm a Nigerian, born and raised. I have 3 siblings and a whole bunch of extended family I hardly or never talk to because I'm kind of the outcast of the whole bunch.
For the past year, I've been trying to find out where I fit in. My friends are doing a lot of things with themselves and
I feel like I'm being left behind. I have mad insecurity issues, that's probably why I haven't done much with myself yet.
Let me explain. I write poetry but I'm too scared to put any of them up for viewing because of the fear of not being good enough. I have a ton of poetry collecting dust in the basement along with some of my drawings. Would've posted some of that but you know, the insecurity thing, I'm working on it though. I'm most insecure about my singing, I mean I've heard myself sing
and I have a ton of friends who hype me up, tell me I have an amazing voice but the fact that I know there are people out there better, I can't stop feeling I'm not good enough. I know it shouldn't make me feel that way but I'm sorry....it does. I've had experiences in the past thats kind of added to these insecurities, I'd let you in on one.
I entered a competition in 2016 where I had to submit a 1 minute video of myself singing. After submission, we had to wait 2 weeks for a return email telling us what the judges thought of the videos and tell us if me made it through. I was so excited because I actually thought I did so well. I always remember what the comment on the email said like it was yesterday, "not quite what we're looking for, I would be nice if you try again next season". Never have people's word broke be before like that message did. I mean I try not to think about it some but I can't help it, its always there. I've had other experiences but they just bring back bad memories.
I hope one day I have the courage to at least post one of the my videos here.
I'm a sucker of movies and books, gosh! I've read all the Harry Potter books, little women, dune, conspiracy theory. I don't have a patricular genre, if its nice I read. I spend most of my
time reading books or binge watching my favorite series( game of thrones being the top of that list) and movies, or listening to songs, anything that helps provide an escape from reality. A big Sam Smith fan, James Arthur, Alessia Cara, Billie Elishe, J. Cole, tons of them but its is generally good music, I listen. Uhmmmmm, my personality, I like to think I'm quiet but only my close friends can really tell you if there's any truth in that.
I sometimes come across as heartless even though my heart breaks. I hope I am able to fit in here and be a part of the hive family. Big thanks to 