Love, the fairest of them all. The bible talks about God's love, science talks about a bunch of chemicals that make us feel love, almost everything on this earth talks about love in one way or the other. When I saw this episode yesterday, I was excited, thought I'd have a bunch of things to write, to say. Fast forward to today, at this very moment, I've been stuck lying on my bed struggling to write something, anything. I mean, I'm in love so why is this so hard. The truth is, I've never really thought of how far I'd be willing to go for love. This is the first time I've really felt love( excluding the love between family) and so I've not really thought of what I would do. I'm hoping if I'm able to describe what love is to me, the inspiration would come.
The first thing I was taught about love was God's. His infinity ability to love us no matter what we do and as I grew older, I found out what it meant to be in love. I said before, I'm currently in love. She amazing. I met her in school and really paid no attention to her, it's wasn't anything like love at first sight. We would talk occasionally, but it was just talking, nothing more. I started to notice my conversations with her was all I could think about.
I'm really quick to put a pause on those feelings, but it was different this time. The more I wanted to stopped the more I longed for it. We've been dating for 7 months now and I just remembered all I've done up till now.
The question was how far we were willing to go for love. Well, I used to be an indoor person, I still am but it's not the same. She loves the outdoors and now I find myself wanting to hang out outside. Not because I want to but because I want her to be happy at all, love isn't doing this for you because I want you to do this for me, love is doing this for you because I want to do this for you. Another thing is me being a better person. I developed this attitude of not caring about how people feel, call me an jerk if you like, I didn't care. Now, now I actually care how people feel because she said it's important. God how I've changed, I didn't less now, I'm more disciplined now. I want to be better, to do better.
The question was what would I be willing to do for love, how far I'd be willing to go. I realize now that I'm ready to go a long way. I know what is good and what's bad and so I know where to put a pause on it but man, anything that makes her laugh, makes her happy, makes her light up because if she's happy, I'm happy even if it means going out way out of my comfort zone. I know I'm going to do a whole lot more, We just have to grow and find out.
The things I would never do, pretty simple. Make a tear drop from her eyes. Being a cheat isn't an option. But I've thought of it too. I would not hurt another human being just because she wants me too. Like I said, I know where to draw the line but I highly doubt she'd would ask me to do that