I know that frustration when receiving criticism, derogatory words hurt when you doubt the veracity.
I can't imagine that in a work environment as demanding as yours, but I think I understand it in part.

Everyone learns in their own way, and if they try to guide you in a way that doesn't match the way you are, no one benefits. For me it's frustrating, if I do things my way, I'm wrong, if I do things another way, I'm wrong. Whatever I do, I'm wrong and I can't make progress.

I can adapt, I know, but is that the ideal when I want to better myself? I don't know.