Welcome back! It's really great to see you posting and communicating again...and makes a nonsense of this statement...

They think I am negative energy...

...the reason being that when you post, it's actually the opposite. It's positive energy, and this is backed up by the number of people who drop by to say hello and wish you well. It's also positive because you're trying to make sense of what's going on in your life and with your illness.

I am sure there are also many people who read your posts who are in awe that you are able to be so open and honest, and who wish they could be the same. Most people just want to show the happy parts of their life and are too afraid to show the not-so-happy. You are not afraid of sharing your true feelings, and that's pretty inspirational :-)

As always, I was really happy to see your name pop up in my feed, what a great way start to my day. Thank you!

You take care always, feel the best you can feel and even in the darkest times, remember that you're never alone :-)