Last couple of days I have been very upset with hubby. He has this medical condition of Myasthenia Gravis, which I have mentioned in the past how serious it had become and he was on the verge of losing his life. Myasthenia is a chronic autoimmune neuromuscular disease which weakens the muscles of the body, and for him the most impacted part is the chest. Before the treatment of this condition he was smoking. The Doctor has given him strict instructions that smoking is very harmful to him and will have a direct impact on his breathing.
After he got cured, though it is not a complete cure, he had stopped, 2 years later he again started. I tried to stop him a lot, and he would say just one, and then one become two and so on it kept increasing. Last year he was again taken down by respiratory infection and this time Doctor gave his strict warning that this smoking is really going to kill him. He stopped again, then in the last few days we had been on a day outing and there I caught him smoking. He tried to convince me that it was only one and that was the first time but I knew that was not true. I was super upset with him and stopped talking to him for a couple of days with a hope that he will have some realization. Again he has promised me that he will not but let's see.
I understand these addictions are very difficult to Let Go, but sometimes I think, how can one still do it even after knowing that this is going to kill them. I am sure that the craving must be too much and it's difficult to ignore it. Addictions are harmful and not easy to quit on, it takes lot of courage and determination. But my only point is that if you have quit it, do not go back to it again. Be strong in the mind to never get back to it again. It is only going to be a suffering and nothing else.
I try to explain to hubby also that life is much more beautiful without these things and though these things will bring temporary pleasure but in the end they will only bring harm and nothing else. He is a gem of a person but this is the only thing I do not like about him. I know he is also trying but then sometimes he gives up easily. Possibly this is a life long battle for me to keep a check on him and make sure he does not get back to this addiction.
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