So I had a bee sighting recently ...
Then I got a reading a few days later from social media:
"While bee symbolism can hold many meanings, its main message is one of balance in productivity. Are you working too hard, or perhaps not enough to reach your goals? Are you taking on too much responsibility because you don’t have a tribe or community to help you? That’s another message the bee brings: the value of community. So often we feel the need to do things ourselves. We resist letting others help us, and as a result, sometimes we drive ourselves to exhaustion. But what’s the use in pollinating flowers if you can’t take the time to enjoy their beauty?
Bees work as a community because no bee (and no man) is an island. While we could exist without the company or help of others, it’s not the most productive use of our energy. We need time to rest and relax as well, and that’s another bee message: balance."
Which ... I thought was pretty good. It pretty much got me taking my need for rest and healing right now more seriously than I've been able to. I've gotten in a few naps in recent days!
Which kinda brings me to stuff I was thinking about earlier. In terms of writing or updates. Responses to messages during the night in my dreams as well as this morning, waking up.
Two messages, songs regarding the wind. At first there was just the one song, 'she's like the wind,' but then I remembered another one, one that came up recently in my memory remembered and listened to again a bunch of times to secure it back into my memories. One that actually, I had imagined as a wedding song, for some reason. Suddenly realizing that these are about being blown off, or at least the message to me. Which ... I wanted to respond to. I mean, the sense is that someone is mad at me for blowing them off. But I think I'm the one being blown off. And the blow off that the other thinks I did in the first place wasn't real. Or wasn't what they thought. Back to this in a moment. Maybe.
The other one was a vision:
SNOWFLAKE
All of this is really, a spontaneous rant. Just talking, wanting to share and connect. I'm not fooled. Or at least not as much as you think I am. Its interesting sometimes, the things that get exposed if my writing triggers someone who is really watching. I mean, with unexpected people. To me, anyway.
Anyway. The snowflake thing.
I really really want to address this stuff! SOOO much I want to write about. I know there's a future out there where things I've mentioned have a real effect in the manifestation of a better future. But I'm so sick!! So I haven't been able to write like I want to, or like I would if I could really focus on it now. I still try though. Mostly I feel people so close! We keep getting so close to making contact.
Which I guess, brings me back to the messages about being blown off.
I was thinking about a few visions I've had. I think the most recent one was Vladimir Putin's face, scolding me severely and giving me heck over something. Although I could not discern what it was directly. Or people being really mad at me for things that seem to be for my own good, where I've resisted.
There is denial present, over getting help or being offered help, but it being the wrong kind of help. Then being mad that the help that was offered was rejected. Maybe the rejection was taken the wrong way?
Failure is not an option for me. Its all or nothing. You have to get this right.
Every time someone has gotten close, there's been something deadly dangerous in the gap (er The Gap) between us, either against you or against me. There is no either or. BOTH of us need to make it, together. I said this in a recent astrology reading someplace. All leadership now is based on partnership, there is no absolute power.
Also this speaks to the physics evolution of our reality and Creation!! I know I've seen an article or two on this. Something has shifted. No longer are we tied to a reality where "everything" is either a wave or a particle. The evolution is that everything is both. Now, recently. Some kind of shift having happened for us.
The thing is, I usually work LIKE HELL to clear these blocks. Because I WANT the connection to happen. Does it seem like I'm just leading everyone on? If so, you people are totally blind to the threat you represent. Your egos, your blindness. The things you take for granted or believe to be absolute truth. I HAVE to clear the things that will destroy us. You need to realize that yeah, its us. Not you vs. each other. Not you vs. anyone, without me.
Yeah, I'm pissed off.
You nearly kill me to get me to heal the path and then you keep making excuses for it. I save you from death, over and over again but you don't learn! And then you have the gall to try to pin all of that on me!!
Mars is certainly volatile right now.
And I'm still burning up rage and hate with that blue Fire of Love and replacing it with peace. Its working. Maybe even, the reason I was able to address these ideas in this format, at ALL.
Reading back. Something I didn't address. WHY I keep avoiding so called "medical care." Me leading you on. Needing help and rejecting it.
You've got to freaking be kidding me. ???
Seriously.
What I really need is NOT the kind of structured medical intervention er, make that structured medical subjugation that certain people have in mind. Besides... with the coming age it will soon be discovered that I am not the only one! My genetics and their ... patterns in nature are about to surface ... make that, are and have been surfacing ... SOON. There are 143,999 others like me. Probably more to it (the whole picture) than even this, I would imagine. At the start of the shifts last August I got clearly that we were about to see an amazing development with unexpected technology. The surprise is that it is organic technology! Things that will seem very magical and unbelievable to many. Things not controlled by what we think of currently as science. Especially regarding our understanding of the human body.
I am mostly capable of doing my own medicine and after dealings with the system in recent years, I prefer it. What I need is support for that. There is a small circle of people who have already 'dealt' with me in person, I'm pretty certain, but my awareness of that is controlled. I would imagine that this is the place to start, regarding contact. On a larger level. Most of these people I have come to trust. I think so anyway. Oh yes, and Dr. T, if you are on the mailing list for getting my posts ... I think you are GREAT! I got your recent email and I would absolutely agree to outpatient treatment with you. I would LOVE to work with you. I need new glasses soon, also. Maybe I will have some funds to approach this soon, as well. Keep your fingers crossed.
Going back to the SNOWFLAKE message ...
I have writing I want to address here. I know it has seemed for a long time that I'm really, nothing but a snowflake to some people. Maybe judgmental people. Maybe other factors in play. Plus, I did have that breakdown ... its been hell recovering from that. Or not. But there have definitely been and still are, issues. But I am a serious person. I've been working on my resume! I wanted to post it so you would see that I'm a real person. Not the fluff or the crazy many of you only see. "Over the top" is one of those judgments, I believe. One of the cruel ones. But information about all of it is so fragmented! This is why I write, to clear up and fill in the blanks as much as I can. I pretty much figure that nobody is on the same page.
Also I have some important thoughts, about HOW. What. How to fix things. A plan. Plans. Ideas on how to make it all work. So I've wanted to write about this also. In fact, I have notes and outlines for both of these ... my resume and my plans.
SIGH.
Maybe this is partly what it meant, the symbolism of Saint Katherine having been torn apart by Lions? Being pulled in conflicting but important and needed directions. It feels like Time is backed up someplace, also.
LR 7/20/2018
California Psychics:
The Meaning of a Bee Sighting
https://www.californiapsychics.com/blog/angels-guides/meaning-bee-sighting.html
Credits: Personal cache - bee photo. Google images for the Snowflake.