I've been writing for a long time.
And I have nothing to show for it.
Ever since high school, I have had an interest in writing. But I have never taken it seriously. I have many projects in various states of completion (some would say in various states of disarray). But I have always done it as a form of creative release. As means to let things out that otherwise might fester inside.
For that reason, I have gotten what I wanted from writing. It has allowed me to put my thoughts to paper, and because they were never to be read by anyone, I was able to be more candid, more honest, than I might have otherwise been.
It's been cathartic.
But more and more lately, I have been wanting to pursue writing as something more. I do not know what form this will take yet. I have no idea if it will result in completion of some of the already started projects. Or maybe I will start fresh. Or maybe I will just put my thoughts down here for you good people to read and get something from.
Maybe I will write short stories. Maybe I will write poems. Maybe a novel. Maybe a collection of essays.
Maybe people will get something from. Maybe they will get inspired. Maybe they will laugh along with me. Maybe they will laugh AT me. Maybe what I write will be completely dismissed.
And I don't really care.
I am going to do it for me. I am going to keep writing as I did, but this time my intent will be to do it more publicly. If something more comes from it, then great. If not one person reads, then great. I will still get my release, but now there is a chance to know if I am any good at it. The few people I have allowed to read anything have said I am. But I am not entirely sure if that was just politeness. I intend to find out.
One thing I can say for sure, is I am ready for it. I am more mature in my thinking; in my process; in my awareness; and in my ability to take criticism. And that has come from me waiting until now to actually become more public. This is truly a case where procrastination has been the best thing for me.
I am ready.
And I am looking forward to it.
