Since my early primary school days I often found myself staring out of windows, pondering upon some of lifes great mysteries and dwelling upon questions that simply cannot be answered.
Was it the chicken or the egg?
How did they build the pyramids?
How did the universe really come about?
If there is always a beginning and an end than where did the atoms come from that started everything. Did they just create themselves into existence before there even was an existence?
Now, it's no big secret that with deep thinking comes a certain level of alienation. Afterall, it's not really a 'social norm' to exhibit abstract thoughts and unfiltered emotions within a society that is strongly geared towards extraversion.
I first started feeling like there was something very wrong with the world when I was fifteen. I just did not know what that "something" was.
I started observing my teachers and peers at boarding school and started to realize that obedience and conformity were not only encouraged but awarded.
'Fit in, obey, conform, consume were the general subliminal message that I was recieving. I could not figure out why society teaches us that we must 'get a degree, job, marry, reproduce, and than die, all while repressing our emotions and authenticity.
Why is there a war on drugs? When alcohol has taken more lives. Why are cigarettes legal? And why is DMT considered to be a "class A" drug when it is a basic chemical compound produced naturally within plants, animals, and the human brain? Is everyone meant to be jailed for exhibited a class A drug within our brains while we dream each night?
As Terrence Mckenna states "The masters who make the rules of this planet have taken away a major slice of what it means to be a human-being, a basic birth-right to be able to explore our own minds. If you do not know where you come from, you don't truely know who you are.
I believe the ego was created and put in place to supress the human race. Supression of mind, sexuality, creativity, authenticity and individualism. Imagination is the only place where the human soul is at home. In political terms - The empowerment of direct experience is the only real thing in your universe.
Psychedelics are illegal because they're afraid of us reclaiming our minds.
The truth is no one truely knows what is going on. The only experience that counts is your own experience. We as a species have lost our moral compass and we assume we need materialism to survive and be happy.
Nothing lasts. Not you.. not your thoughts.. not your friends.. not your family.. and the ego goes mad in the presence of that truth.
So.. is DMT really the answer to unlocking the truth about existence and reality? Perhaps or perhaps not.
I do not take drugs.. but i will be documenting my first experience with trying DMT in the upcoming weeks.
It is possible that the visions may be a bi-product of my imagination. The only way to be sure is to ask questions that i don't know the answers too and remember those answers once i regain conciousness.
I am about to take the redpill Neo.
