If I could ask God I want to ask him, "why is this happening?"
Everything turned into nothingness after what just happened. The house was built for many years without continuous construction because of an unstable source of income and life status. We worked so hard for this even though it was a longtime before we could say there's a place we finally could shelter ourselves. From the betrayal of cold feelings during the night and from the disturbance of rainfall during sleep time. We did everything just to secure ourselves to fall asleep at night peacefully. But now, with just an hour everything was wasted.
Where to sleep now? Even when I'm inside I can still see the sky clearly. What shall I do if ever the sky will cry upon seeing us trying our best to sleep with this kind of state, no roofs, no walls and no room. Why did we try our best last time just to have a shelter when for an instant it will just be faded? It was built for 10 years before it was completed because of not enough to finish it right away. Now, just that, as if we didn't spend blood and tears before it could make it happen it would just be taken away from us. How about the emotions we went through?
I know it was not just us who experienced this devastation, this destruction that it's hard to fix. Roaming around, seeing the situation of our village. It was hell, even trees remained lying in the ground because they had no strength to stand. Houses that it's hard to see one because the pieces of it are nowhere to be found. It's not small, it's huge and wide and yeah,I don't know where to find those materials to assemble it again like a puzzle.
Some people are sleeping outside, next to the road. Some are sleeping in the evacuation center, same as my siblings. Not afraid of being threatened but worried when the rain starts to fall. I know this sounds emotional or just being dramatic but how can I not after what just happened. How can I prevent my tears from falling when I can't believe this is how it feels to be homeless.
For now I'm still confused, searching for the words to say after being shocked by what just happened. I have so many words to say but my tears speak louder for now.
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